CVA - Thread 2, Hold mode

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THanks for posting here. That is funny LOL.
Yes, "let go", that is the key, too bad I dodnt do that a long time ago.
At the airport and feeling depressed. Just wrote a long response to you that got wiped out cuz I hit the wrong button. Oh well, the bottom line is I am not in the greatest frame of mind. Need to think about what I am doing in this sitch. I am going to lose everything, not just my W if I dont shape up. Funny, my biggest fear in life was losing everything I hoped for / loved and I am being staring at that right now. What comes around, goes around I guess. I have been a jerk / ass and its coming around. Unfortunately, my beautiful children will bear the brunt of all this, I will survive. I just wonder whether I will ever actually "live" the life I want now.

Failure comes to mind as I write this. I failed, no question about it. Yes yes, pick yourself up, all that, I know.

Thanks for your support, what would I be doing if I werent typing away in the terminal, wallowing in self pity or staring at "families" that look happy or worse, staring at super hot women who wont look back at me. THat would be like at home! LOL.

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