Big thanks for that, feeling a bit low at the moment. Not through anything we've done (good weekend, concert together last night and shopping today - without the children), but through some of the off-hand comments she is making.
I think some of them are trying to get me to react 'Think I will start smoking' (she works as a Pharmacist), was one and 'When you go on holiday in October (indicating that she will not be there)'.
I take heart from what you are saying, she stated today 'I don't like asking you to do things because of the situation I have put you in', I did the classic DB and did not react or discuss this, indeed as it was in a shop, I could easily change the subject.
In respect of the holiday, I was bright and cheery in my response (looking later, I noticed she was eyes closed, looking sad (which also breaks my heart)).
I really hope my 180s are working and we are still intimate adn share the same bed. She just tried to get me into an arguament and I did slip slightly, but then apolised and left the room.
I think people looking in will see more positives than me and I need the support to help me pull this through. The openair concert was an 80's event so we both knew the songs. Initially she wanted to meet up with friends, which I was cool with, but couldn't find them - lots of laughs, tactile touches (from me) and just enjoying the evening. Some of the songs seemed to strike a chord and I noticed her playing with her wedding ring at one point.
At the end of the evening, she txtd the local radio show and included both of us, so tick that one as a plus. She was drunk, so straight to sleep, then intimacy this morning before the shopping.
So sometimes I see moves and othertimes I crash back down. Going to read DB more this week and take strength from that.
