It's not that I don't like sex. I've figured out through the SSM book that I am a low and he is a high. Part of my problem stems from exhaustion. I was working 6 days a week when we first got together and commuting 2 hrs to and from work. When I got a job closer to home after we married, it took me roughly a year to recover from it. I had the doctor running all sorts of tests (and they all came back negative).
Shortly after that I got pregnant (D4) and we bought and moved into a house. Then my dad lost his apartment and moved in with us. I also have two steps sons (16/18). No privacy in my own home which is small.
H thinks these are all excuses. I'm just plain tired. Still am as he works from 6-?? and leaves me with all the other stuff. Kids, house, etc. and my full time job. I don't really complain about it since I figure he's out there trying to make a better life for our family.
I do enjoy being with my H. However, I don't think I am an overtly sexual person. I also don't have much in the way of sexual experience as I waited until I was firmly engaged to my H before we had sex (H was my one and only). I waited because trust was a big issue here for me as I have my own abandonment issues to deal with.
With the big D looming over my head it was like a wake up call. Bleep or get off the pot so to speak. Hence, the research which led me here and to the SSM.
So are you saying perhaps I should "start dating" my husband and see where that leads us?
Me 35 H 41 M 10 years Together 12 years D,6 SS, 17,19
