Well here I am! First, I would like to address last Thursday night. I lost it, I let anger, one of issues she upset with take hold. It drove the bus and it wasn’t pretty. I let the mind go, and posted some pretty messed up stuff. For that I would like to apologize to the board and thank those of you that helped bring the landing gear out and bring this trip down. I’m sorry!
Well luckily I didn’t act on anything with the W. But I guess a little update is appropriate on the issue. After the funny VOIP call, used to work with a telco so I was pretty sure, but it was hard to tell. Well the weird call that night from the prefix of the OM to my cell. Later reviewing my home office phone I had a call 2 minutes after the cell call from Motel 8, it is in the OM prefix area. So who knows if a there was a girls night out or a romp at Motel 8. What kills me with this is not the possibility; it is that it is a Motel 8. I can’t tell you how many times I’ve taken her to the best place in town. Funny really. Well the next morning there was no morning after. Who know’s what went down. I sure don’t so don’t let the mind run wild.
Well, I got off the boards to gain control of myself and think for a while. I will try and catch up with others tomorrow.
Friday, wife called and needed the insurance card for her prescription. Gladly got it to her. I decided to follow the advice of the IC session I had, guy has no idea how far apart W and are I. Tried to explain but I think I’m be looking for another if the next session doesn’t approve. Well I took his advice to do something for myself. I decided to buy a new flat screen TV and stereo home theatre. Called wife from work and asked if I could stop by after work and pick up some CD’s and DVD’s. What is she doing with my Ministry any way! Al rules!
Went by her place and packed up quickly. I went to make my exit and she asked me to stay. I just listened didn’t say much. She asked why I was getting these things, when she took all the electronics, I told her what I was up to. She seemed kind of put off by it. Haha! Eat it!
Well I listed to her for about 45 minutes, she told me that she was lonely and confused. I just listened. After a while she asked what I thought, and I just reiterated the things she said and added it’s probably not easy right now. She complained about cash and not making her bills, hmm, wonder were wonder boy is in all this. Obviously he isn’t meeting all the needs, now is he?
Made a quick get away. She dropped S off early today, asked to talk for a minute and again told me she was lonely. This time I was more receptive, and told her that if she needed to talk or wanted support I was here, no string attached. She thanked me for that.
S and I had a great day. Went and did a lot of stuff. I told W that morning that I would help her out with money. She said she would stop by after work and get it. It was W’s first day of her new schedule and she didn’t make it back out. She did call later in the day to say she was meeting her step sisters for the night. She talked to S for a minute, and then I got back on, and again with the lonely! Hmm, not to sure what to do with this at this point. Any R talk and she about crawls down a hole and dies, so I don’t want to really address it. Not sure what to do with that? Well I ended the call and I heard her saying my name but I was already hanging up. Didn’t want to seem desperate.
Well her comes the weird part, if you have dared read this far. S and I are playing and I’m sort of hiding looking out the window because the neighbor is trying to back up a single axle trailer and he has obviously never done this before. Felt guilty for watching, should have gone over and offered but it was too funny. This 740 series BMW drives by, the lady never sees me, but she taking pictures of my car. Huh? W mentioned that she went to the courthouse to file for separation and the clerk told her there was no such thing. Lost there to? The lady never stopped, she just slowed way down and was taking a pic or two of my car. Only thing I can think is she might have been taking a picture of my neighbor’s yard from the angle, but I watched pretty well and got a license plate.
I guess that leads to 4 possibilities. 1) I’m being investigated for a huge child custody battle. Don’t think so, she couldn’t afford that. But she could be getting outside help financially, but not likely if she is so broke on the other bills. 2) Maybe she has gotten an attorney and they are investigating for property settlement. But why do you need a pic, that car has had it and will need to be replaced by next spring. Plus any info they wanted could be requested through legal channels. 3) Lady was taking a pic of the neighbors yard. He has planted like 20 trees in the front yard and it looks horrible, and odd. But I talked to neighbor backing up the trailer and he saw her taking pic’s too. Thank God! I’m not totally nuts. He said the same thing, couldn’t tell if it was my car she was taking pic’s of or the neighbors yard. Said he would keep an eye out. He is semi-retired and home a lot.
Only other thing could be that my assets are being checked out due to some past work I have done and maybe a lawsuit is heading my way. But that is so far fetched, I’d have to be nuts to entertain that idea. No matter what, after analyzing the sitch, I can’t believe W would be that vindictive and then also telling me she is lonely and almost in tears in front of me. So it just doesn’t add up. Well I guess I keep my eyes open.
So here I stand, I’ve really calmed down and decided that I can’t control ANYTHING, but me and the time S has with me. So I’m going to just keep up what I’m doing. I’m getting good results, W seems to be questioning. I have reread the portions of DR that really apply to my sitch and I’m just going to back off, let her do her thing. She is already questioning and if that continues it can only keep getting more questions in W’s head.
