Johnny, If you backslide w/the ow, chalk it up as a mistake and keep moving forward. Don't be too hard on yourself. Just keep trying. Now, I want you to sit down and do some really serious thinking for me. Okay? You mentioned that your w blew up a couple of times this morning. Has she always had a short fuse or has this been happening since the mil moved? What was she like tempermentally throughout the marriage? The reason I'm asking this is that I'm reading an excellent book called "The Depression Source Book" by Brian P. Quinn. It has a lot of information and examples that can be applied directly to your situation. He states that people who nit pick/complain about minor things could very well have mood disorders and depression. You mentioned that you've suffered from depression off and on during your life. Can you think of what may have triggered the "spells of depression"? Johnny, how was your childhood? I know that you mentioned your mother was an alcoholic, but what about your father and close relatives? Were your parents verbally or physically abusive to you? Do you want to talk about your childhood a bit? If not, I understand. It's not an easy subject for some people. Always remember that depression is anger turned inward. If you want to talk, the posters will listen and not pass judgement upon you. We may offer up our opinions, but you are a human being and none of us is perfect. You keep the positive thoughts and everything will work out for you today. Have a nice day!
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
