My gut reaction was to pen a "Amy-style 2X4" message and tell you to pick yourself up. However, I also agree with Blynd....maybe this is what you BOTH need to be able to move forward.
I believe your marriage will be restored...and, like others before you, it will be better than ever BECAUSE of the trials you both have endured. Lots of scripture to back that up as you know....
I'm continuing to pray for you and your H and kids...
Praising God Daily, Remaining "FaithfulH" Me: 62 W: 62 D:33 S:30 & 31 Married: 40 Years BD: Sep 2006 Piecing: May 2007 2nd BD: May 2014 Working On It: Today