Well, I had a day eh? I am sitting here at midnight awake. Your using a lot in the past form. Yes, I WAS the life of the table for a bit and still can be, when all this stuff isn't piled on. The last thing I want to do is bring gloom to the table. The last thing I did was leave the table early just because I had work things to do. Also if I see my being there is bothersome in any way I make it short and go and that has been on the increase. So you probably firgure I was just nice to have around and this has all gone to my head? I feel like crap over how I acted today with her but abstainance(sp?) to me was the best thing. You have a good grasp on the entire situation snods after what I've put out today on this board. Its the other perspective I am so confused on. I dont see myself lay g it out again in this amount of detail as seen in this thread this time around.
On the W front, well, all was dull in the bedroom tonight and even after her mom turned in for the night prior to turing off the tv things were quiet, I was sleepy on the couch. I could not sleep in bed so I am up listening to rain and reading and my son is up also. (19 living at home and going to local college) Well on house stuff, I do loads of laundry (theres much more that her mom is here) but it never seems to be enough and we have a dish washer and take turns with it. I now make the bed everyday now that our waterbed is gone. That was the hardest bed to keep wrinkle-free and getting rid of it did decrease some of those arguments. She does go off if the trash in'st out promptly. So I think I'm getting the jist of all that there. More emphasis on the little things, sounds quite do-able. I know one thing.... I can dust better than her so maybe I'll start doing that. She misses so many places and thinks she's doing a good job. All I know is if being married is being miserable and arguing, well I cant see living like that too much longer one way or the other.
Well, your message snods started out with an 'Oh Johnny' and I must look pitiful. I feel pitifil. On the concert thing, I was only being asked to go by a person who said 'we all should go out sometime' like I'm one of the girls or something. Well, for one thing, these ladies will be going to a bad town to this thing but I still am not going just to be protection and also ow is one of the ones going and I do not know her position on me being there. As far as I know it would be three or four of us. I say let the girls go and do their screamy jumpy concert thing, and I just might be extra nice to my W that night like she deserves instead. I should go back and read what I wrote today but I rarely do so. I write what is happening for the time.
