Johnny, Glad to see you decided to hang in here. I had to chuckle because you remind me of a little boy who has been caught w/his hand in the cookie jar. When I turned the heat up a bit, you became angry and annoyed w/me and threatened to leave the board. Your ploy doesn't work w/me. I knew you'd be back today. Now, let's discuss your stress of today. When you are stressed, is there any way that you can go to your office, shut the door, close your eyes and think of something pleasant, i.e., like a walk on the beach, boating, or take a quick walk around the building? Or Sometimes doing this will help to alleviate the stress/tension you are feeling at that moment. Just food for thought. I don't smack hands very often, but I did want you to understand that I'm going to stay on you about the OW until she's out of your system. She's an addiction, just like alcohol or drugs. It's the admiration, attention, etc. that you get from her. You aren't getting that at home, but that's where you need to speak to your w about your feelings. I'm not kidding here, you need to try to arrange to get the both of you out of the house for a nice dinner and relax a bit and talk to her w/o you losing your temper and/or patience. Can you do that? Communication is a two way street. Anger management didn't help you much, because you are ready to fly off the handle every time someone challenges you. You're a smart guy, you should see that we are only trying to help. But, then again, who said that you have to help yourself before anyone else can help you? Just remember, I'm always around to keep you on the straight and narrow, i.e., just like a little angel on a cloud. Please get those meds checked out and whatever you do, don't take herbs for depression while on prescribed meds. Have a nice evening.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
