The really messed up part of all of this is that I know if I hadn't screamed the Big D in frustration, we wouldn't be here now. I am positive she has had no intentions of leaving me, but because she is aware of her own mistakes in our M/R, she shuts down all responsibility and runs away while she just claims that she is not good for me. I know she is not seeing anyone and she has told me before that I am the only one who truly understands her, but in times of conflict, she has historically defended her actions by telling me that she just isn't good for me and that I understand nothing about her. It's very frightening how fast she can switch things up, and it leaves me feeling helpless.
