Charcoal, You are a very intelligent lady. Yes, the contact has to stop in order to work on the marriage. Can't have "three" in the bed, so to speak. How are you doing with withdrawing from the internet? It's hard, but you have to keep plugging away at it. I think you're determined enough to beat the addiction. Hang in there!
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.