I hear you. I'm detaching. Its taking a while but I can feel I am gaining on it and the infatuation stage is way gone. Today a situtation I cannot control will occur and keep from lunching with the gang. This is good.
Well, I just had an 8 hour span of getting yelled at before I went to bed by W then waking up to her yet yelling about something else. I actually got up and came to my job 4 hours early to get away from it. She was glad to see me up and rolling but that doesnt mean I can leave any earlier in the business I'm in. Whew. tough love. I'm trying to love the W but its like loving a rabid animal that cant help itself and its snapping at you etc.. It's a work in progress for sure. Currently I am finding it easy to keep my eyes to myself so thats a good thing. I am trying to make it work with W through this tough time.
Emotionally I'm pretty numb in every aspect. I dont even laugh half the time at things that normally should be quite funny but then will think of something funny unexpectedly and laugh out loud. If mlc is real, I might be dealing with some of that, cause I sure am searching my feelings a lot lately if I can find them. Stay tuned.
