Thanks W2S.

You are SO right about being anxious.
I have to hold my tongue each time we talk so as not to ask about the R or ow.

I am really trying to live a better life. I want to be noticed, but patience is so NOT my best virtue!

I used to think I wanted him back no matter what - fixed, broken, whatever. Thanks to what I've read here, I now know that I must wait until he's sure.