Yes, I get what I deserve right? Those who know my mlc story know what I have to deal wiht. No pity party required but the EA was brought forth by the ow and I just went off and went along with it.
No sex, no holding hands even, but a holiday kiss or two was the worst it got, but emotionally.... OMG. Hook line and sinker. Many months ago I was quite ill. Well, I am getting a grip more on the outs of it as I on occasison avoid this lady now and she appears to avoid me from time to time. I can go with this but am really getting down on myself and my emotions in doing so. Normal? Probably so, but any tools or suggestions to get me though this since I never ever see this happening again. This lady was a rare one to approach me in the manner she did and I cant see this occurring with anyone else with me.
Well, the way she made me feel, was just so great. My ego was stroked big time. My W is not about to duplicate that under the current conditions. I do not want to go looking for another ow, I didnt go looking for this one, but that great feeling just kept me going for so long.
