Wow BeingMe--I have many of the same thoughts. Most of what I know about OW has dropped in my lap as well, and I have no doubt that if there is information vital to the survival of my family it will be made known.
I guess that's what gives me the strength to forge on in my current direction--I strongly believe that if I start out on the wrong path I'll know pretty quickly if a change is needed.
I'm so sorry you're feeling so much frustration in your sitch. I think that's been the hardest thing to accept for me: that I truly have zero control over H's choices. Especially when those choices affect our little children so profoundly. As well as the fact that his choices have involved actions I could/would NEVER make myself. But I am finding that when I take a deep breath, take my hands off the sitch, and turn it over to God, things have a way of working out. Just have to make it through the scary parts. Good things are coming for you.
