Moving Forward,......taking baby steps.

[~Sol]

OK, I am just going to update myself here.....I forgot I was supposed to take my daughter to my W's place this morning on my way to work. I was sooo exhausted yesterday the whole dropping off thing just slipped my mind. I am new to this also. But I had SS at the house and I got him up to help clean the house, and watch my daughter for when W would arrive.

So I called her, she was also exhausted and didn't sleep all day - but kept fixing her place up, and she was still sleeping when I called. Also, my daughter gets up late and its hard to wake her most of the time.

But I called my W and told her I took care of our daughter, she was awake, ate breakfast, and was watching cartoons while SS was taking care of her. W was going to have her during the day anyway. I think she is more flexible than I thought, but I need to be the one to set timely boundaries since I am so busy.

I have online classes again, trying to recover from my loss of getting dismissed last term from my old school because my head was way up my a$$ and I was hurting more and a real mess back then. Now I got myself together and started with a new school, but still online. I am also starting up a company that I can use my artistic talents and all of my online education in multimedia to get up and running. I don't want to work at my current job forever, and be at the same pay level. I need to do something better and different with my life and be able to provide a better future for my daughter and myself, because my W won't - or can't - unfortunately.

So I have high expectations of myself now, from parenting, to handling my W better as a friend only, to becoming a business owner.....and just having great relationships....but my daughter is at the center of it all. She will need me to be there for her, and a good provider and mentor.