Do I buy a house? What about sex?

[mkultra]

I think my H must have heard of that type of support, too. He wants the "friendly divorce" where the kids have a smooth transition into their two homes. Awful.

You are entering into the obsessive zone. That is a bad place to be but it shall pass. Now carry yourself carefully. Do not get overrun by your emotions/ hormones!!! This is very important. Stay cool. You will drive and push him further away if you lose control. No one would blame you if you called him and lambasted him for being such a MLC cliche but it will not get you what you want. It will give you temporary information. I also have thoughts like you. Remember he could think the same thing? How can he trust you? What if you got knocked up or met a richer stronger man? Of course we know most of that stuff will not happen and if it does cross that bridge when you get there. I used to call my H at 4AM wondering which was the worst place for him to be: jail, DUI arrest, hospital, passed out at work, with some OW, at breakfast with God knows who? Take your pick but he was pissed I bugged him so it was not worth worrying any more.