In need of help II

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I don't want to go up or down. I know it is not a game, I don't think she thinks it's playing a game. But when all is said and done at the end of each day, that is how I feel. I am to old for any kind of games. Seems like more I pull back, the more she does it. The less I pull back, the more rude she can be. I guess if someone has a manual on how to play it would be easier. Even though I shouldn't, I worry about every step I take, every comment I make, every facial expression I give is going to be the one were she just says F off and really mean it.