Character, Faith, and Patience IIII (I think!)

[JR2007]

Yeah, that's the bottom line from this episode is I was just so shocked to get such a harsh pullback. It didn't feel like there was that much to pull back from but she definitely did.

I'm back in the saddle, I just have a hard time after these meetings with her. Especially yesterday when there was no positive reaction at all and in fact denial of any positive actions previously.

I know I'm not giving up until we've tried everything. We have not tried everything, in fact, I'd say we've tried nothing - so there is a lot to do.

I fear that her knowing I'm here fighting for her makes me look weak though and makes her feel like she can walk all over me. I have to be careful with that. Also, I've kind of realized that this forced darkness I've been in hasn't helped and here's why - she doesn't see it as ME doing anything to give her space. She sees it as her TAKING her space and forcing me away - see the difference between that and volunraty darkness? I'm not getting any credit for giving her space. Even though I allowed her to keep it in place for 90 extra days, I get no credit. So that's tough.

Anyway, I know what I have to do, and I'm doing it. I'm back and I'm feeling good again. Thanks guys!!!