In need of help II

[789]

I don't want to go up or down. I know it is not a game, I don't think she thinks it's playing a game. But when all is said and done at the end of each day, that is how I feel. I am to old for any kind of games. Seems like more I pull back, the more she does it. The less I pull back, the more rude she can be. I guess if someone has a manual on how to play it would be easier. Even though I shouldn't, I worry about every step I take, every comment I make, every facial expression I give is going to be the one were she just says F off and really mean it.

[sadhearted]

I invited my H to come with us out to lunch today. We were celebrating my S3 wearing underwear and potty training. He agreed to go with us! It was a pleasant lunch. He joked around a couple times. Almost felt like old times. Which is really nice but it also makes me sad. I just want him back ya know? Where we are right now is so much better then when he first left. It just makes me wish we could get it all back. He thanked the kids for having lunch with him. He thanked me for inviting him. I hope he'll realize we really do belong together and come home. I should be happy it went well today and I am. Just also sad cause we parted ways and I probably won't see him again until next weekend...

[789]

Take it the day and enjoy it of the rest of the week if that is going to be the next time you see him. He is showing up and enjoying the kids and you, at the moment what more can you ask for right now?
Just keep working on yourself and enjoy the kids.

[sadhearted]

Hey hope your enjoying your vacation.

Yes he did show up and it wasn't half bad. Not much more I can ask for at the moment. Small steps right?

I did realize last night (yeah just now) that even though I hate this sitch there is good coming from it for both of us. Hopefully in the end we'll be together.

[789]

Yes I am enjoying it. My sister just took all the kids to pick up dinner, they will pass out after we eat. So I will get some time with my family. It has been forever seeing them. Just have to make sure the don't get a lynching mob together.

[789]

Yes, all small steps no matter how small. I am no longer worrying about the day to day stuff, your not either remember. No divorce talk or being served is a great day, remember.

[sadhearted]

Yeah hard to catch up with kids running around yelling and screaming.

Tell them they're not allowed to lynch you.

Yep I seem to remember that. One day at a time. Slow and steady wins the race. Or something like that.

[789]

I am wearing a brace, so I don't chase

The lynch mob would be for my wife, they love her, but want to hang her at the moment.

[sadhearted]

Ah good point. Let everyone else do the chasing.

Oh. Yeah tell them not to lynch her either. Won't do any good. My family feels the same way though. Course so does his brother and SIL. Pretty nice to have his family seeing he's being loopy.

[789]

They wouldn't, they do love her and want us back together, they are staying out out of it and supporting me on the side, her parents are staying out of it also, just don't seem to care one way or the other, but who knows, they may care more than they show.