In need of help II

[789]

That sounds like a good enough reason.

[sadhearted]

Yeah I thought so.

Well another visit done. He actaully hung out for a few minutes talking to the kids. We discussed the cat laughed some. He went and got his stuff came back inside said bye. So a visit. Not good not bad. Not bad is a step.

[sadhearted]

You take what they'll give ya when they'll give it.

Hmmm beggers comes to mind.

[sadhearted]

At this point I'll take eye contact and a half hearted smile.

Though on the computer he's much more friendly....

[sadhearted]

I need to escape from my mind... We had a decent couple of weeks and now today yeah he stopped by and that was okay but other then that nothing. He's back to not talking to me.

I want this ride to stop. I'm not willing to stop it though. I love him and I want my marriage.. Sure wish I had a switch to flip to turn my brain off. It'd be nice to not think for a little bit.

I can't even escape in sleep. I end up dreaming about him!!!!

[789]

I still say it is in the water today

[sadhearted]

Well I've had some water now so maybe. Had a big old glass after cutting the grass. Don't like cutting the grass....

[789]

As long as you don't have allergies, it is not to bad.

I think while I am out of town, I am going to stay out of here also. I need to let go of my own mind. Spend time with my boys and remember the 3 of us are family with or without her. Might not be her fault, but I feel I am one step from insanity and I cannot allow that to happen.

[catfan]

I can't even escape in sleep. I end up dreaming about him!!!!

Maybe it wasn't the water but the sandman. I say that because my day has been crap since before I got up. I had a dream about my wife changing her mobile phone number so she could start calling this male friend of hers without my knowledge. Guess what she's done, taken her phone off of our family plan and made it a pay as you go phone. So that means it doesn't show up on our bill. I learned all this yesterday. :-(

Maybe what we need is a escape from our own tormented minds.

[sadhearted]

And it's exercise.

Sounds like a plan. Take some time for you and your kids. I don't know that I'm to insanity but I'm most definitely confused. Pretty much all the time. So I may be close to insane.

I always thought the fun part of the ride was going down not up. This is so not fun. Like the up better.