Thanks for checking in Heimlich. I do feel like I am better equipped now to handle this situation, but it certainly doesn't dull the pain.
I went home again today for lunch and she was there. We had normal light hearted conversation. As I was leaving she gave me a hug. I couldn't resist, I asked her what her plans were for tonight. She told me that she would be sleeping "out" tonight and that tomorrow, she would be driving to her father's in Newbury, MA after work. She gets off of work at midnight and her father lives over 4 hours away. She is going to take Monday off of work and so I probably will not see her until Wednesday of next week. It is not going to be a good 7 days for me. I really hope her father is giving her good advice. I am just weary, because my W does not want to even talk to anyone who does not agree with her viewpoint that she needs time away- she won't talk to her mother, brother, sister in law, uncle, aunt, or grandmother- but she is anxious to drive over 4 hours to see her dad, who left his wife of 25 years for another woman and when he did, my W scorned him for it and swore that he ruined all of their lives. I am afraid that he is using this opportunity to try and get back in W's good graces by saying "see I am not such a bad guy, it can happen to anyone, sometimes you just fall out of love, you are so smart for acting on it early, I waited way too long to get out of relationship that I did not want to be in etc...." That is definitely something that my wife will respond to.
I am just speculating here, because that is all I can do. There is really no meaningful conversation between my W and I. Her dad was here on Wednesday. She did not say one word about what they talked about. I suspect because she knows I would not want to hear what he says and can probably see right through his manipulative motive in this situation.
The problem I anticipate this weekend is that my best friend whom I had been leaning on very heavily throughout all of this is now in England for the next month. My family is going on vacation. All of my other buddies are going to be in Chicago for a bachelor party or Vegas for another bachelor party. I chose not to go to either for two reasons. One, they were the same weekend so it was going to be tough to choose which to go to, but the main reason why is that weekends are the only time my W and I can spend any time together. So, I decided that I would skip the BP's so we can spend some time together. Now, she isn't even going to be here and I am going to be all alone with no one to distract me (literally, between the two bachelor parties, there is 20-25 of my closer friends will be across the country). And we said we would watch my parent's dog while they are gone, so I am tied to the immediate area.
