Journaling:
The past few days have been mostly GAL and not too much interaction with W. Our limited interactions have been mostly business about the trip. She has also been working out more which is good in one sense, but also related to her wanting to look good when she sees friends, family, and yes OM on the trip.

I have been reading again from Deida and Brehony "Awakening at Midlife" and really need to rethink my goals at this point. I hope to make some progress on this during my trip as I will have more time to think than when I am at home.

It seems that I am vacillating between

A. wanting to just be and Do Nothing

B. wanting to push W into some action (IC for her?, her get a job, her move out, ANYTHING!!).

C. wanting to take dramatic action on my own (close joint accounts and take over all family finances, buy myself a new car, refi the house and do major renovations)

I am sure that A. is the right answer to meet my original goals. The question is: Are these still my goals?

Next journal should be interesting if I can figure out the answer to this question!!!

SD


Me 41
W 41
Kids: S9 S7
Married 16 years
Bomb dropped 2/2/07
Still living together!
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