Still Tryin's new thread 2

[S.T. _I Made It!]

Thank you Nikki for your post! I was hoping to hear from you soon. How are you doing now? Probably didn't expect to get stuck on the rollercoaster again huh. that really sucks. i was on it too for a long time, but it didn't have as many highs and lows. So you are a great example to me too.

I kinda screwed up the other night. My H was on the computer for a while, so then when I got on it was late. So then I'm up teaching my aunt how to sign someone up and it's 12:30am and H walks out wondering why I'm not in bed yet. bad girl bad girl.

Then yesterday was really bad. well, not horible, but haven't had a fight in a long time until yest. So, I'm at Lowes looking at paint and other stuff and I forgot my paint info at home. I'm about to leave and someone says hi to me. Didn't recognize, but remembered him. He was checking out, so I started talking to him about Mona Vie, and he talked about his business. We probably talked for 5-10 minutes, and right b4, H text me. I took 8 min to answer, but in the meantime he calls and I push the button to go to voicemail, since I'm trying to explain MV. well, then he calls again, and is totally pissed that I did that. He said he could have met me there and we could have test drove a car (had planned to that night sometime) but now i screwed it up because I didn't answer the phone that was important. Important that he not go home which was 10 minutes out of the way. That is not important to me in my opinion, but I think it was what happened the night b4 that triggered this.

Soooooo, I say that in my opinion it isn't a big deal about the phone, and he said it's rude, so I say Okay next time I know to always answer the phone no matter what. I tell him also that if he's talking to a client he wouldn't ever answer. But he said that's different. i said, it's not because this is my business and I'm trying to work too. Then he said, well your business isn't doing us good then.

ug. He ended up getting mad at me again cuz I forgot to get the name of the car place when I drove by since he asked me to. So then he's throwing the phone book around (not literally, but on the floor when he was done) and cussing about it. Then we're in the car and he's still griping and asks me a ? and I don't answer and he gets totally pissed, and I say, well either I gonna bust up laughing or start crying so I'd rather not say anything.

Well, I end up doing both. Then he said, I didn't mean for you to cry, I almost feel like I'm going to cry. I told him what did he want me to do, go back in time and fix it? I already told him I would answer the phone each time in the future, so why keep yelling at me about it.

I didn't handle it as good as I should have. Not sure what I should have done, okay, yes I do, I shouldn't have stayed up on the computer all night. I'm sure that caused the whole thing.

BUT....he ended up getting all over me about two hours later and I said, I thought you were mad at me and he said, no and proceeds.

So, I am still learning my lesson. Only be on the computer when H doesn't see me. hahaha!

love you guys! thanks for all the help!