Of course, I also understand that you're not sure you still want the M. Is there anything about her right now that you can genuinely respect admire and use this molecule of connection to draw her back in?
That's a great question, Lillie, and I have to admit that it's getting harder and harder every day to see anything. I'm rapidly losing what's left of my love for her. If something doesn't break soon, it may be too late.
Choc.
Man Choc, Skimming throught the posts I wonder if were not married to the same alien. The timeline, the responses, the texting, it all could be quoted out of my life lately.
About the not having anything left soon. I know how you feel, I caught myself seeing little glimmers of change and would get my hopes up, only to have them crushed and ripped out of me.
I tried to picture a small part of my heart that still loves her,(the real her, the one that I know is still in there somewhere) and locked it away. I took it and walled it off in a steel room that even I can't get to right now. That way when this does turn around (I believe it will) there will be something that she will be able to work with to try and make us whole again.
M 39, W 35 D7, S5 Friends 18+ Together 11+ Married 8 ILYBINILWY 4/7/07 - A BOMB 4/29/07 Seperated 5/16/07 - D Filed She Moved out 7/1 D Busted 6/15/08
