W called and asked if I could watch S until tomorrow morning and then bring him to her place, she wants to go to a bacheloret party with some girls she recently met. DB’ed ahead, said no problem, have a good time. Told me she was excited because these girls seemed nice, she has hung out with them before, and she thinks she needs girlfriends and not guy friends. Made me feel good there, but maybe she is blowing smoke. I felt that I pushed last night and shouldn’t have so I asked if she was alright from last night, and she said yes, and that it gave her a good perspective but she said she felt pushed. She told me that she felt like things were going well but I have to give her time. Need to back off. The good thing is I have to say I have not heard that tone in her voice in a long time, calmed me down better than a smoke. She really sounded excited about tonight and to talk to me. If I found I was getting snowed, I would have WC on the phone so fast to get the “5 the hard way” manual.
Well I have the first IC session tonight and 5ll showed last night, so with S and all that, I think I’ll be pretty busy tonight. It would be nice to just watch a single stage of the tour from the start to finish… Got to keep priorities straight and want my family and partner in crime back ASAP. Patients, Ok OK!
One thing that is really bothering me is the time and patience I’m expected to exert. I would say things seem to be getting to an agreement quicker than usual, but I’m trying to fight back the bitterness of what she is doing to our R and S. I have noticed as of late the shear amount of WAW in this age group, and I feel like I’m dealing with a 17 year old boy. It just feels like she sees the world right now, not next week, a year or 5, but only right now. Do whatever I want to gratify myself and there aren’t any consequences. That is the only way I can explain, a 17 year old boy. Probably the view is skewed from my perspective.
