Delia, I do still love him, it's hard to turn off emotions for a man that you've been married to 21 years (anniversay 26th of this month) and with 25 years. My friend asked me last night if I still loved him, and tears started rolling down my face. I love the old H, I don't know who this new person is. My old H would never have hurt his family like this. The way he is now I will be so much better moving on and that's what I intend to do. From your post I take it that you and your H live separatedly, if so how long? How old are your kids. As you know mine are young adults, 16 & 19.
Kim
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