Character, Faith, and Patience IIII (I think!)

[sadhearted]

I know it sucks. We all get these great insights into who we were and go about changing only to have your S go um no. I'm thinking I'm seeing some cracks. Afraid to be to hopeful though. It's easy to remember not to believe what they say when it's negative it's when it's positive it's hard to remember. Least for me.

Yeah I sit here and think I've had all these insights about me but if he won't give me a chance what's the point? I know I'm bettering myself but geesh. I can't even think about starting over with someone else. At this point have absolutely no desire to even try if I end up D.

It would be nice if our S's really understood no one is going to benefit from a D. Just not sure how to send that message.