Well you have a good attitude about it all. Wish I could get there with my sitch.
Oh, I'm miserable. I want my family together. My son wants the family together. My wife has other ideas. I cannot control her, she has made up her mind.
I would love to be able to do something about it, but I know I can't. I've now banged my head against the same wall three times, with no cracks. There were cracks but apparently I imagined them. She told me at the therapist yesterday that she had NOT said things that she most certainly had in previous meetings. SO, I guess I should know better than to believe what she says at this point, right?
The real shame in all this is that she won't get to benefit from the changes I've made, that she really made possible. That's like building your dream house and never living in it. That will be the hardest thing to get over. I have to go share these great new things I've learned with some other woman. I really feel bad for the regret my W is going to feel, it just doesn't have to be this way. We're all going to lose and lose BIG TIME.
We can talk ourselves into defeat or we can talk ourselves into victory - we are creatures of our thinking.
3/31/07 - Hit with a brick, leaving the dent there...
