Take a break! take a mind vacation. It certainly will not do you any good to cop an attitude due to lack of sleep. Unfortunately that happens to me, but I am better at recognizing it and shutting it down sooner.
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no matter how good it might look, you still won't be happy with the final result.
If you played out alternatives to what you are doing to stay in the M, would that have results that you would be happier with? I think so often that it would be easier to let go but it's all the hurdles in between letting go and finally done that I can't get over.

Curious, how long did you and W date before marriage?

Live your life while you are still living.
Riding the trail less traveled.