Got to thinking about things (yes, we know that is dangerous for me) but this time it was all good. I realized many things that I have not seen or wanted to see before. This is more for me than anyone else. It is going to be long so read if you want but if you don't, that is ok too.

1. Been separated almost 29 months (not divorced).
2. H doesn't mention the "D" word.
3. H still does things for me if asked.
4. Still communicate with H (not everyday but enough).
5. H isn't with anyone else.
6. H has seen my myspace and didn't complain to me about his pic being on it.
7. His name is still on my email (from XXXXX & XXXXXX) and has not asked me to change it.
8. When I was going out to my MF's house he would come up with an excuse to call me.
9. He tells the girls things knowing they will tell me (his way of letting me know things???)
10.I have pics of him all over the house (even added some since he left) but he doesn't ask me to take them down.
11.He has pics of us at his place in his living room on the bookshelf.
12.He still has stuff at our house.
13.He makes the full mortgage payment for me.
14.H used to tell me when I would ask about us "Why can't we just leave things the way they are right now". He told me when he left he needed some time. He said could be a week, month or even years. He didn't know. (MLC)
15.He is involved more in the kids lives now than when he was at home.
16.He and I get along a lot better.
17.He doesn't tell people we are apart. Some people still don't know after all this time.
18.He responds each time I call him. (In the beginning he would ignore me).
19.He has admired all the things I have done with the house (fixing it up).
20.He paid over $100 for a ring for me for Mothers Day from the girls.
21.He spends the holidays with us.
22.He spent our birthdays together out to dinner.
23.The bills at the house are still in his name also. He has not asked me to take his name off of them.


Those are a few (ok, maybe more than a few) positives I can think of right now. Looking at that makes me feel so much better. This was more for me than anyone else. I needed to see it in writing I guess.

I am in a better place right now.