In need of help II

[sadhearted]

Well I think my H sometimes sees the affects this is having on the kids anyway. Problem is he's afraid the cost of coming back may be more then he's willing to pay. Yeah I know crazy. We had a conversation the other night and he asked what I lost. Trying to keep it away from us I said well not the kids and he said no that's me. I told him I could help him find them and he said but at what cost. I said less of a cost then loosing them. He said and my sanity? I said I can help with that too... Anyway I ended up sending him this big long IM about how I got it and I know I messed up.... He sent me a smiley face back. Um okay. But also keep in mind he also said he doesn't have his sanity now so....

Need to scream :0