Well I must have scared him off again. He said a couple sentences to me earlier but for the most part isn't talking today. Maybe I should say he's decided we shouldn't be talking cause I haven't done anything to scare him off. He could just be busy but even when he is I hear from him more then this. So I assume he's hiding again. Even though I know this is what he does and I know it's coming I hate it. Is it really too much to ask that I have my family back?
I know back off give him time, space and everything else. Problem is I wasn't pursuing him he was the one talking to me. So I'll sit here quietly and hope this stage doesn't last long. Maybe he's just having a bad day who knows. I just know I want him back. Guess when it's the kids quiet time I'll cut the grass if the temp hasn't jumped up to the 90's.
W: 33 H: 37 SS: 14 S: 7 S: 3 married 08/09/97 Seperated 11/02 05/07 H moved back 8/26/07
Is it really too much to ask that I have my family back?
That is the one that gets me. Our spouses have to know what it is doing to the kids and everyone else involve in our families. I honestly cannot believe they don't see it. These are the times I wish I could truly just let go and not care.
M 41 W 33 S8 S17 Bomb 3/11/07 S 3/28/07 New beginning? 8/31/07
Well I think my H sometimes sees the affects this is having on the kids anyway. Problem is he's afraid the cost of coming back may be more then he's willing to pay. Yeah I know crazy. We had a conversation the other night and he asked what I lost. Trying to keep it away from us I said well not the kids and he said no that's me. I told him I could help him find them and he said but at what cost. I said less of a cost then loosing them. He said and my sanity? I said I can help with that too... Anyway I ended up sending him this big long IM about how I got it and I know I messed up.... He sent me a smiley face back. Um okay. But also keep in mind he also said he doesn't have his sanity now so....
Need to scream :0
W: 33 H: 37 SS: 14 S: 7 S: 3 married 08/09/97 Seperated 11/02 05/07 H moved back 8/26/07
Well I guess the one good thing I have done is give her space and have not brought us up hardly at all. Just day after day passes that nothing changes. Hopefully I will be one of those lucky ones where she just calls out of the blue one day and says "oooops, I want my family back too". I know it is to much to ask for now, but I can always hope.
M 41 W 33 S8 S17 Bomb 3/11/07 S 3/28/07 New beginning? 8/31/07
Yeah I don't bring us up when it's brought up it's by him and though I try to detour he doesn't quit that easily. LOL odd statement to make given the sitch we're in. I must be loosing my mind.
W: 33 H: 37 SS: 14 S: 7 S: 3 married 08/09/97 Seperated 11/02 05/07 H moved back 8/26/07
