I haven't sat down and posted much. It kinda is just going on with out a lot of direction. He still has her on the side but he is 2500miles away. So at least its not in my face as much. I went to the funeral or Lets say they called it a celebration of LIfe instead of the F word. There were alot of people there but she didn't show up her family did but not her. Actually I saw a lot of people and at this celebration of life they had dinner and drinks and beer because that was what the guy wanted to be remember as having good friends and a good time. I saw a lot more people I hadn't seen in a while. Everyone thought I looked good so that was nice to hear that. My H called the other day and said something about some of his old friends who are nothing (just kinda drank their life away, cheated on their wifes, etc.)He said he told our oldest son that he shouldn't be around those guys because they are no good and just thrown their life away and are not good influence.. (Oldest S rodeos around these guys)WTH!! Hello!!! My H has been right in there with them and still he has the OW. Does he not get it? That he isn't used the best judgement either? My oldest S is pretty cool about it and knows what is going on.
I have been reading and keeping up with you Mat and YoYO and Husband and Theo and others. They have been great support for you and it is does make me laugh to picture some of the visions that Theo and Husband and Mc give. This is a tough old road we all are on but with each curve I believe we are all getting stronger. The thought of starting over and rebuilding our life is the scary part even though we are given no choice. As i move through all of this I find somedays are better than others and the tears come and go pretty frequently but we have no choice to try and be strong and move ahead. You guys are great and I have really appreciated the support and just reading about everyone else and the great advice that is given and the support is unreal.
