Thanks for checking in. No, today hasn't been very good for me. I am on edge about going to the concert tonight. I love the band but would so rather be going with someone other than H. I am very nervous about him taking this a "sign"...seems like everything I do thats not negative he jumps to the conclusion that everything is fixed which usually leads to a nasty R talk and days of hurt feelings on both sides.
Any advice you can give me? I don't want to lead him on in anyway. Wasn't sure if I should state at the beginning that I am only going because of the band etc etc. Let me know what you think.
I am seriously considering not going at all as I see this as huge backslide territory.
Me: 30 EX-H: 37 DD: 5 Separated 6/07. MC for months, EX-H quit MC. Divorce Final 8/14/08. Trying to move on with new life.
