So much for hope :(

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Nope, we have not control, it is taking me forever to learn that. I kept thinking if I did this, or said that, something would wake her up. Now slowly learning that I have changed, made the improvements that I needed to make, and nothing has changed. It is not me now, nothing I can do or say will change that fact. So letting go of what I want to control is the only thing I have left.
Doesn't mean I have giving up hope, doesn't mean I don't love her, it is just that it is now her problem, her decisions to make, I just have to get comfortable with that part of this situation.