forever21's journey still continues.....

[forever21]

Thanks HS! I did sleep good. I guess I've found some good reasons to meet with him, to replace my original agenda.... hehee. I'm with you... I definitely don't want to be with the person my H is now and that helps to get over him. I also am realizing that the grass truly might be greener in my case. The thing is, I don't necessarily need that. I meant my vows. That's likely why you feel the same way, I think.

Hey Ian! Good to hear from you. Good luck today. I also have a meeting this afternoon, but not really an interview in my case. I'm meeting with that broker again. He has a few more "options" he's going to share with me. I'm looking forward to hearing about them. I have to say, for me, I think I'm doing really good at NOT seeing that person in my H that I used to love being with. I see him for what he was and is, which I'm realizing I didn't really love that much. Love was a choice for me though, and still is. I'm finally accepting him for who he is. I think what we hold onto is the hope we had for our future with that person, but we can instead have hope for our future w/o them and/or with someone else. This has really been sinking in over the last several months. I know there is more life out there, and I know someone else might be more able to give me what I deserve and deserve what I have to offer. I also know that I didn't give my H what he needed either, so I'm not ready to give up on my M just yet.

I've been working on my online course. Yesterday I spent much of the day with my laptop out in the back yard, enjoying my dogs and the butterflies and keeping myself in the shade as best I could. It was so nice. It's been hot and I have the dogs' kiddie pool out for them, so that's entertaining. Just really happy right now. Enjoying life.