Feeling Guilty

[still.struggling]

are we jumping into chocolate syrup?

I am jumping off a cliff into the ocean. Maybe I will hit my head on a rock going down and put myself out of my misery. I feel like I have been falling for a long time now, I guess it is time to finally reach the bottom.

I need to re-think some things in my life.

Nooooo... say it aint so T2...

We have to plan a big summer tag team jello wrestling tourney!

I said my jello wrestling days are over, I never said we couldn't wrestle in mud. We decided that would be easier anyway.

Right now, I am in such a funk, I feel everything is over.


ENOUGH OF THIS!!!!!!!!!!! I must pull myself back up. For goodness sakes, I need to look at some positives so I can get out of this funk.

1. He waved first.
2. He is coming over to fix my leak.
3. He laughs and jokes on the phone with me.
4. HE HAS NOT FILED OR MENTIONED DIVORCE IN A VERY LONG TIME!!!!

Why let the little things get to me? I need to look at the big picture and #4 is the big picture.

I am going to fight myself on this and before the day is over, I am determined to be my positive self. No more of these pity parties. No one shows up anyway. Who wants to be around someone who feels sorry for themselves???? Not me.

POSITIVE, POSITIVE, POSITIVE.........I am slowly getting there.

[lost-n-found]

That's the spirit T2....

[lost-n-found]

lnR is trying to mis-behave again I see.

lnR! HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

grrrr....

guess I should just go on and change names huh?

[*KS*Chick*]

and you have your own personal cheerleader here - LNR

[789]

Don't change your name, I just like typing it wrong.

I need to change mine, I do not know how I screwed up when I signed up and ended up with 789, just have never figured out what to change it too.

[lost-n-found]

Spirit fingers and all.

[osu43130]

T2,
Come on now babe.

You are my counter part you can't be depressed. ho am I going to talk to about mud wrestling?

Just want to stop by and say Hi since I have relieved myself of the horrible mood I was in the other day.

[still.struggling]

Just want to stop by and say Hi since I have relieved myself of the horrible mood I was in the other day.

I think you gave the mood to me!!!!!

[osu43130]

Your Welcome. And I dont want it back....

I am not an Idian giver.

[still.struggling]

LOL!!!!! I think I will take this mood and just throw it in the road to get run over. Then no one will have to deal with it.

I am beginning to feel better. I am looking into my future. Not one with H and I, just with me at the moment. I am looking into a new career. I think this job is holding me back. I need to find something where I am around other people.

I may have to give up some of my time on the computer but in the long run, I think it will be worth it. Less time to think also. More people means my mind will stay busy. LOL!!!!