Was starting to feel better but as I was coming back into the office from getting lunch, H drove by. I started not to wave but I did. I'm glad I did. He waved first. Now I am feeling lonely again. He was out getting his lunch also I'm sure.
I wonder if he is now thinking about us and everything we are going through. I wonder when he sees me does he think about me. Why do I do this to myself? I haven't thought about these things in a long time. I don't know why I torture myself like this.
Now, I will look up every time I see a white truck go by and try to get another glimpse of him. Aaaarrrrggggghhhhhh!!!!!!!
