What is wrong with me? Last night I had the perfect opportunity to do my best DB'ng & I did nothing & I totally acted how I felt (numb & not interested). I dont know if its b/c of the hurtful things he said yesturday or it's my detaching mode,but I am starting to enjoy life w/out him once more. Now that he is threatening to come back home ,I am not so sure Iam ready or want him for right now. H came by lastnite for his reg days to see the girls & normally he would take them out for dinner and no longer would he hag around, so I did not cook. My SIL had one of the girls & I guess H called her & he picked her up from her. I mentioned to SIL that I had to come back(it was late) & see what I could defrost for dinner & so I she told H I was cooking. It was so late I really did not feel up to it & H was not going to take the girls out after all, he wanted to hang around for a while. H said I thought you were cooking (as he searched for something to snack on). I waited to see if he would take them out as I said well dont u normally take them out for dinner (was hoping for some me alone time),but no such luck. H turned on his big screen tv (which BTW he had previously hid the remote from me on purpose & the girls were asking him where it was b/c mommy was looking for it). After I fed the girls H was on the couch on his lap top so I went to my room and got on my computer just waiitng for the girls to finish & for him otput them to bed so I could get on this website. H called me out to the LR to show me some stuff on his lap top, was being kind & small talk considering our ealrier alteration. After he put the girls to bed hecame in to say goodbye & said Well since your on the cumputer I guess I will leave ( I took it as a hint,hint 4 me ?maybe he wanted to talk or was waiting since I had mention us needing to talk,but that is one of our promblem each of us waites on the other to start & neither get anywhere)!He leaned over for me to give him a kiss on the cheek & just as he was about to leave he murmured oh well let me go and be miserable??? IS he hinting he is miserable w/ her as he was going back to her place?? Anyho...I ignored the comment...AH!! I know perfect opportunity & I just let it slip awawy....I was not up to it. no R talk to nothing...I wanted to be alone & could not wait 4 him to leave....
Do you men have a radar that goes off just when we are letting go or doing fine on our own???? H does this all the time trys to pull me back or acts inteested when I'am that into the whole thing anymore
sorry just rambling gathering my thoughts here..one of those I dont know days...... ya know we all get them
