Well it has been an interesting few days since I posted last. MY HUBBY did get me a puppy , he is @ 9 months old and he is a Bichon Frise. He is sooooooooooooo adorable. We just love him, and he is soooooooooo spoiled! He is really cute too!


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I would like to also say that I am soooooooooooooo proud of me~!
The other day some *W*s pull up in a car to drop off someone ( guy that works for H) and to make a long story short,, I did talk to my H @ it. That day and the next morning. and he knows now how it made me feel and that it was inappropriate.


I must admit:

I walked out to the car where my H was talking to them .(( I WANTED TO KICK HIM!)))

... one of the girls I do know my H has known her for years she is an acquaintance of his. ( he had been drinking a looooooooooot that day) All I did was look at them and I am quite sure I wasnt smiling.... yuck!
He did not like that I went out there.
..... he said it looked like I do not trust him,,,, I told him I understand your point of view but you apparently do not understand mine. He THEN told me he loves me and he respects me... and hugged and kissed me~

NEXT MORNING.... we talked about it more and he said basically he was sorry.

Also that I hurt his feelings by acting like I do not trust him etc etc etc...

and I did say .....

(((( ....cause he started to mention the past.AND HOW I USED TO BE X, Y, OR Z. ( JEALOUS, GO OUT ONCE IN AWHILE, AND SUSPICIOUS)))))))

"YOU NEED TO STOP LIVING THERE,,, OR DO YOU WANT ME TO LIVE THERE TOO????????????????"

"Cause then the way I acted the other day was far , I mean far too Ladylike."

"With your history I should have went out there and made a scene or worse and also for sure thought the worst of you. I trust you but that just wasnt ok."


I repeated .. "YOU NEED TO STOP LIVING THERE,, WE ARE HERE NOW AND I WORK EVERYDAY TO LET THE PAST GO... YOU NEED TO ALSO."


We talked about the issue more later and I explained ..

"what if I was bent over by a car and sticking my BUTT in the air and talking to them and you walked up?"

He said that is different .

And I said NO actually it is not.
I also told him.... I know you were not "doing anything bad" but you had your butt in the AIR and you were like hee, hee, heee.ha, ha, ha and I literally just wanted to walk up to you and kick you in the a**. He agreed.


So I am proud of me cause I am making progress and he is getting better and validating me ( even though it takes 2 or 3 convos ) and seeing that I HAVE FEELINGS TOO.

We also talked more about his "DRINKING PROBLEM".
I AM NOT TAKING IT ON , IT HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH ME!!!!!!!!!!!!

~ HE IS JUST STARTING TO SEE THE PROBLEMS IT CAUSES.PRAISE GOD~

HE even admitted he would not have been so friendly to those girls had He not been drinking so much.


Will post more later...it is getting somewhat easier to tell him exactly how I feel w/o fear. I am very proud of that ....

God bless...