I know what you are saying. I am trying not to get my hopes up too high over relatively small things. I just think she is really confused right now.
I slept in our bed last night. She came in around 1, didn't go to the gym. She told me when she came in again that she didn't sleep at all the night before. She got ready for bed and then crawled into our bed. No cuddling but it was just nice to hear her breathing next to me. I woke up in the middle of the night and just watched her. She still makes my heart skip a beat when I look at her. How do I love her so much after the things that she says and does? I don't understand it, but for some reason I do love her just as much as I always did.
Well, we are going to my mother's 50th b-day dinner tonight. My family still does not know (except for my father) and I plan on keeping it that way for some time. Hopefully (and this is a long shot, I know) I will never have to tell them. I am just going to pretend that everything is normal tonight. I don't imagine she will sleep here tonight, so my mood tomorrow is going to be significantly worse. At least it is Wednesday though. Almost through the week. We shall see what the rest of the week has in store for me.
