I can conversely say that your at an advantage NOT having kids. CVA is right, it would make it easier for you to make a clean break and start a new life. The whole ideal of no contact is to GAL and also give her a chance to see what life would be like without you.
She'll check in on you via mutual friends and acquaintance, they will be curious like that. If she comes back to you, that's great, if not, you've adjusted to a new life.
"It is curious that physical courage should be so common in the world and moral courage so rare." -Mark Twain
