Frustrated and Saddened

[stewart10]

Well, I figured that since I was there yesterday morning I would tell her that yes, I was. Not as bad a reaction as I thought, but then again, haven't seen her since I told her. I guess right now, every day is going to be a struggle. Everywhere I look, I see something that reminds me of her and our hopes and dreams. I went to talk to an IC yesterday. He gave the typical line, if this does not work out, it is not the end of the world, yada, yada, yada. I just feel like I am being cheated out of everything that I ever wanted. I know that it could result in the beginning of her moving on without me, and it is killing me inside. Slept terribly last night. I had been up previously for 40 hours straight. I am going to work today. God, please help.