i just need to breathe. feel like i'm underwater, again. Awful. Weirdly, unbelievably, thoughts of him w/her are even not as horrible as the fact that he continually and consistently - purposely & w/exact aim - hurts me & hits me & hates me, and it's still not enough for him. and it's still my fault. this is not H. this is not the man I know at all. no one else in the world gets this version of H. i don't want this one. i don't like him & i want to run far far asway from him.
in Hiding mode today.
Will see C Thurs unless someone cancels in the meantime.
Don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened.
Me: 45 - WAH: 36 S8; D6 M: 11 yrs 07/06 Initial Bomb 10/06; D Bomb 11/06 - DBing begun 1/5/07 - H moved out 03/16/07 To date: No papers filed; H not seen a L; trying to convince me to MUTUALLY file for D
