IV neppah sgniht eseht od yhW

[sadhearted]

Is she just trying to drive me nuts, is her motive to make me drink, does she really hate me that much she wishes I was dead.

Maybe she's testing you. See if you're going to start drinking again if your pushed too far.

[*KS*Chick*]

BTW - you're not defeated yet so you should change that sig .... maybe to something like:

What I'm fighting for......

and

I'm not gonna let the bastards win

[789]

Thank you TopJ.
Checked my emails and was pleasantly suprised. I will be reading it today.

[789]

Onewish, It was sent to me this morning. So I will be reading it and see if it can help my perception of things. Thanks

[789]

Is she just trying to drive me nuts, is her motive to make me drink, does she really hate me that much she wishes I was dead.

Maybe she's testing you. See if you're going to start drinking again if your pushed too far.

She will fail if that is her test. I know if I have one drink, I might as well just finish off a keg myself. I will never let that happen.

[789]

BTW - you're not defeated yet so you should change that sig .... maybe to something like:

What I'm fighting for......

and

I'm not gonna let the bastards win

I know I am not defeated. Last night was just a bad ending to a bad day. Felt like I was down by 15 points with under 2 minutes to play. OH thats right you don't like sports. I will smile more today.

[sadhearted]

Is she just trying to drive me nuts, is her motive to make me drink, does she really hate me that much she wishes I was dead.

Maybe she's testing you. See if you're going to start drinking again if your pushed too far.

She will fail if that is her test. I know if I have one drink, I might as well just finish off a keg myself. I will never let that happen.

Good for you! Show her that you've changed and won't be going back to your old ways. And IF she decides she can't be with you then it's her lose. Now if I can just get to where I think that about my sitch.

[789]

Thank you, the drinking did not stop for her, it finally did for me. I realize if I start again, it would be the end of me personely. Yes I do hope the benefits of not drinking can help us, but not the reason I will not drink again. Yes it will be her loss, I know that. Just that I do not want it to be her loss, I still do love her and one day..................

[sadhearted]

Yeah I know you don't want it to be her loss. I feel the same way about my H. I love him very much. I feel like maybe he's starting to chip some of his wall away but who knows. He could also turn it around at the drop of a hat.

You just keep bettering yourself for you and hopefully your W will realize she doesn't want to loose you and your family after all. Either way you'll be better for it. I think I need to practice what I'm preaching. lol

[789]

Can't explain women, probably shouldn't do what I am going to do tonight. She just called and asked me to come over for a late dinner. After last nite, I just got to go and see how she is today.
Wish me luck, shall return soon.

Oh yeah, she also told me to bring my dirty laundry ! !