Ease off, Nomo. I don't want to fight with anyone, especially not you.
I did not include myself in the "broken" list, as I am proud of the progress I have made on myself. After posting, I did realize that you would tag me on that, but I believe I fit more in the "currently under renovation" category.
Hostage situation question: Touche.
Home by halloween: Sure, I'm going to the judge if she's asking for a little more time on the 30th. C'mon, Pusher, it's just a goal. If I see any reason to continue, I'll ask for a reconciliation at S's college graduation, but for now Halloween is my hope. (side note: I'm particularly proud of that goal, as I set it before doing any of the serious studying that has gotten me even to this point, No "patience is a necessity", no "1 month for every year", none of that. Turns out, it's a really good goal by any formula you like, and I just happened to luck into it, even though it seemed like 3 eternities at the time that I set it.)
I feel no obligation to push back. If all of this were happening in a vacuum, I sometimes feel that I could stand to wait forever. Unfortunately, it is not. Things are really starting to fray, and my abilities to hold everything together are getting really taxed. I haven't given up, but sometimes I need to take a serious look at what I am doing, and who it is really helping. Divorce is a form of solution, just not one that I happen to be very fond of.
I believe she "knows" knows a lot more than anyone gives her credit for, especially me.
I could care less that she had to work late. I'm not even really that mad at her for not calling to give me the chance to spend some time with S, as she may have honestly not known how late she would be. I'm just really frustrated with the whole situation sometimes, and I am following your (very wise) recommendation to get it out here.
The "brutally painful divorce" comment was largely made out of pain and spite, but yes, I can see some consistancy there. Divorce is not the end of the road, and I can't help but notice the more I "take charge" of certain aspects in my life, the more she responds positively. Or, maybe I'm just feeling defensive.
In short, I always appreciate your comments, Nomo. Tonight's had an edge to them that could be really helpful to me, but I hope they do not represent what I think they represent.
Take care of yourself, friend. If I have to flail around on my own for awhile, so be it.
P.S. I would say hi, but the thread is locked. Also, I'm very self-centered.
