This morning I stopped by church for my morning prayer. I like to do this when I am near the church because I find it even better to pray there.
Well when I walked in I ran into our assisting priest which lead to a nice conversation. When talking about patience he told me something interesting. He's recently picked up his Greek Bible and began reading it. He just so happened to have read the passage that we have always learn as "blessed are the meek as they shall inherit the earth" Well would you believe in the Greek Bible it's "blessed are the patience as they shall inherit the earth". Wow is all I could say because I have needed patience so badly.
God speaks to us each and every day and he spoke to me today and he said, be patient. Our priest also told me something that helped greatly, "God has told us we need to be patient and you have nothing to loose by having patience and all to gain."
If we really want to love, we must learn how to forgive. - Mother Theresa
Well we saw Harry Potter tonight. She was really glad about it too. Evidently she's got some rather stressful "confidential" things going on at work. I think I have an idea of what and don't envy her one bit. So going to a movie mid afternoon was a real welcome relief for her.
We sat through the movie sitting next to each other and I'd occasionally ask or comment about something and low and behold she'd respond as if our situation didn't exist.
We met my sister at our house because our nephew was with us. My sister is just as chatty as me and is really trying to bond with my wife because "she's my only sister". My wife seems to enjoy it to a point and does really appreciate it. It sure helped keep the ice broken tonight.
That all said she is just so distant otherwise. She's just not going to get physically close if she can help it. Although at the movie she kept her feet close to me, strange because she used to do that in days of old.
Oh well just another of our odd interactions. I thought to myself once, what my priest said this morning. Otherwise I was just enjoying the moment. Now if we could just make it everyday with a bit of intimacy. But alas I can't think that right now, just glad for what I got.
If we really want to love, we must learn how to forgive. - Mother Theresa
I thought it was good. My wife is a big HP fan so she was a little disappointed because it followed the theme of the book but not the book closely.
On a side note I can't help but feel a bit blue right now. I am really feeling the loneliness of this apartment. I have always hated being alone and have slowly gotten to an acceptance of it. But I still don't like it and especially after having a good evening together. Man I miss my wife and best friend.
If we really want to love, we must learn how to forgive. - Mother Theresa
On a side note I can't help but feel a bit blue right now. I am really feeling the loneliness of this apartment. I have always hated being alone and have slowly gotten to an acceptance of it. But I still don't like it and especially after having a good evening together. Man I miss my wife and best friend.
I feel you man. My apartment sucks. Scary thing is I am actually missing doing yard work, think I need to see a shrink about that.
It is a long and tough road we are all on. But we will all endure it and hopefully all have our families whole again, just hope that it is sooner than later.
M 41 W 33 S8 S17 Bomb 3/11/07 S 3/28/07 New beginning? 8/31/07
It is a long and tough road we are all on. But we will all endure it and hopefully all our families whole again, just hope that it is sooner than later.
Ain't that the friggin' truth! I've been at this since Nov. 8th. I found Divorce Busting some time around the 15th and read it in a couple of days. When I discovered she had gotten an attorney and was trying to get a divorce as quickly as possible I had a complete breakdown, at work no less. I found this board a day or so before and it's been a Godsend ever since.
So yes it is a long, tough road we are on and I am ready to be off this road and roller coaster.(aren't we all) But for now, I know I have to dig deeper yet again and keep moving forward at this snail's pace if that. I will come out, NO WE will reach the destination and find great happiness!!
If we really want to love, we must learn how to forgive. - Mother Theresa
Did you have to bring up something I said yesterday. Today is an actual living hell for me. I for one have to dig deeper, a lot deeper. Tomorrow is going to be no better till the evening, then I am off to San Diego for a week and I can't wait. At the current moment I think my situation is going backwards, and I have been behaving without doing anything so it makes it even more frustrating. I will be fine and will continue with my efforts, I just want a pause on it for a bit.
M 41 W 33 S8 S17 Bomb 3/11/07 S 3/28/07 New beginning? 8/31/07
I've had a pretty bad day today and it was of my own making. Sometimes our (the LBS') minds are our worst enemies.
Finally this afternoon I started coming back around and so will you. Always remember that following the dark times are good times, it's part of the roller coaster. Conversely following the good times are the bad but as soon as you accept it and know it's coming it's all a bit easier to deal with.
Chin up my friend!
If we really want to love, we must learn how to forgive. - Mother Theresa
My chin will be up, it always ends up that way. Feeling defeated by everyone today. Like everyone else, just want the ride to be over, and at the moment don't care which way. Tomorrow will be another day and I will want it to be over in the right way at some point in the future.
M 41 W 33 S8 S17 Bomb 3/11/07 S 3/28/07 New beginning? 8/31/07
