Well, violets, no one said it would be easy. I'm sorry but I did have to chuckle at the little creatures with pitchforks thing.
Ok, now, it seems like you need to take things slowly. This happened. You don't have to decide right now what to do. But I would say don't push things. Step back. Reevaluate. And you may want to apologize to your H and explain your feelings.
