That's a White, Anglo-American saying (sometimes) for... holy fck. Where do I even begin?
K. Need to know your race and ethnicity. Religious/philosophical/spiritual upbringing would help tremendously. Keep it short. What is your wife's racial/ethnic/religious/spiritual background?
You know that people... who have been down the road you have traveled, are often subject to... severe bouts of depression, manic disorders... severe mood swings... headaches, stomach aches... ailments of all sorts... that can be, and often are... quite painful.
How is life now? Calm? Are you away from your threats? Do you feel relatively safe, or is there ALWAYS a part of you watching? (I've lived this.... uh... kind of life... in my own way, so I have reason for asking).
