I'm thinking about "why am I still unhappy for no reason" and for some reason I have been thinking about my childhood a lot, maybe it's b/c you guys discuss it a lot, and I was so INSECURE and I have no idea WHY.
Personally, I think you have a reason to at least feel slightly melancholy. Your Husband is in Korea. Give yourself a bit of a break. You are dealing with quite a lot.
And... I think you also need to understand what 'happy' means. To me, 'happy' is not a constant state of euphoria, where you are smiling and laughing all the time. That is... well.. euphoric.
You seem to be in quite a philosophical mood... so you might want to check out a book called, "The Art of Happiness" by the Dahli Lama. It might help change your perspective a bit.
